I watched the video again this morning of the good news and feel that my expression is not the best representation of how I really feel about everything. I love that when I write I can put the nausea away, I can sit and focus and allow my heart to be without the ever presence of the physical things that would threaten to change it.
At any rate, it is a sobering thing to know what is to come with the transplant. There is no shortage of reason to be anything less than afraid. However with this, today I have every ounce of courage a man could have. Just three weeks ago I checked in for an induction phase of chemo. Sure enough it has been nothing more than life threatening and challenging on all kinds of levels, but I am still here. Not only that but the momentum of surviving yet another section of this story and coming out with more than I started, gives me even more strength.
This next time will be a time of rejoicing. I still have several doses of chemo for my brain and my cells. I will be doing them here at the hospital and from clinic. Today however the docs came in and told me though I will still need to be monitored closely, but that I am able to leave the hospital. Er visits and clinic visits will be on a day to day and as needed basis, but know this. 3 weeks ago I came to the hospital with the unknown of treatment ahead. I came with a body full of cancer, again and I did it with the strength of all of you, the presence of angels and the hope of a good woman. Today I come out of the hospital nearly 20 pounds lighter, without hair, and with a different cellular count. But today I COME OUT CANCER FREE AGAIN, holding the hand of a Great woman, and with the un doubtable continued knowledge that God has a plan and we are all a part of it. May we all be so blessed as I am this day. I pray in gratitude, I give my thanks to each of you and I look forward to the miracles to come, even at the great cost of faith for each of us.
As always Have Heart-
C is still for Chad-
